This is Life.

Ferreals?

2011-04-27T01:21:00.001+08:00

Really? Really?? i dont get it. okay ive gone crazy. talking to myself. anyways...

yknow ive always thought people who asks me personal questions are kind of invading my privacy. my personal space. like it makes me go "mind your own business okaysss!!!"

but now that i really think about it, you cant really expect people to just come up to you and immediately rant about their thoughts and feelings and problems and happiness. right?

i dont know if this makes me bimbotic or stupid or just 'slow' (LOL) but i guess people have to ask you to know how youre doing. whats going on in your life. are you okay or not..yeah. thats gotta be it.

forgive me if i look like i dont care. im not good with this. this social interaction. i guess after what happened it made it harder for me to become close with people and open up.

and you know what? yes, these 'people' im talking about are my friends. theyre my friends but i still feel that im not close enough with them. i feel that im still not trustworthy enough for them to tell me anything. hence, i dont ask them things. hence, it makes me look like i dont care. therefore, the distant feelings.

please forgive me. :(

'Twas the night...

2011-04-04T15:57:00.000+08:00

That night was da' bomb! LOL. I had so much fun. ~~Although, i do feel a little bit guilty but uh... yeahhh.~~ okay. lol. the only downside of the whole night was the first band sucked.they sucked balls! hahahaha okay they sucked. they sang slow lovey dovey songs and most of us just wanted up-beat songs to dance around to yknow.. well, thats not really the downside, the MAJOR DOWNSIDE of the night was not having my two baby girls there with me! Bibi Hasnan and Bashirah Maidin! a song came on, one we used to sing all the time, and i got excited to sing along to it and i was hoping these two girls to sing with me but then i remembered they weren't there. :( LOSERS! hehe. kidding. love you two. :p i bet we would've danced without a care in the world. like we did that one time at that dinner. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU MISSED OUT ON THAT! >:( okay i want to cry like dis. :( hehe well, now i just cant wait to see you girls. we should really have a sleepover. we need to catch up and cry and laugh and cry and laugh over and over again. LOL. <3

anyways, i wish all my girls were there.. we were also missing Hanna and Wiyah! If all my girls were there, i would've had a crazier night. that night would've been more than da'bomb! lol.

I MISS YOU GIRLS ALLLOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Hair and Make-up trial

2011-04-01T04:03:00.001+08:00

so, i actually just cannot decide on which hair-do to 'do'. LOL.

i seriously do not have a clue. oh mahn this is bad..

but anyways...

It's a rap!

yeahh... haha apakan. lol :p

2011-03-17T01:36:00.000+08:00

ive already made the mistake of not doing something and regretting it. so now, im going to try my best to live without any regrets. please please please make this work for me this time. this might be my greatest regret.

i feel like ive disappointed you more than once and maybe this is karma. i dont even know if i believe in karma! but i believe that i made the biggest mistake. and here i am running back to you, taking a chance, hoping against hope you havent given up on me. what i did probably made you hate me. (i hope not though. hehe). please forgive me for what i did. i think right now im feeling what you felt back then. guess i now can say 'i know how you feel' and actually mean it. i'll wait. i will. :)

now or never?

2011-03-17T00:32:00.000+08:00

so here's the thing.. im supposed to be studying but uhhhh....there's been a lot of procrastinating going on. HEHEH. i studied that one noght for like half an hour kali sja. LOL. and i was supposed to be making notes but in the end, my paper was empty. hmm.. thats bad.. right? hahah

oh well! there's always tomorrow. :p

(yatah nada tu nahh..)

A girl's gotta do.....

2011-03-16T15:20:00.002+08:00

.... what a girl's gotta do. LOL :p

excuse my open-ness. lol

2011

2011-03-15T03:45:00.001+08:00

ITS A NEW DAY

ITS A NEW WORLD

ITS A NEW LIFE!!!

I just realised that i havent made a 'Happy New Year' post. im not gonna do it now btw because thats just pointless being almost 4 months late. LOL. if you read my old posts, you can see that my happy new year post is always late.every year. ahwell, story of my life. no?

well, lets see.. a lot of things have changed since 1st January. and let me tell you something, I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW! SERIOUSLY, i thought i was happy then, with ..., but now im so much happier! why you ask? because ive never felt more closer to Allah than i am now. i am at peace. :)

p/s: i am no longer with ...... so lets just ignore the old posts. kthnxbye. :)

p/p/s: i'd like to keep the posts anyway to remind me of what happened. whether good or bad. kthnxbye. :)

The Start

2010-11-28T01:29:00.000+08:00

i woke up late this morning. at 12.30pm? what is that? morning? afternoon? whatever it is, i woke up late. i got up, took a shower, ate lunch and got ready to go to Maktab Sains. im volunteering in the Rediscover Brunei race organised by the Youth Programme student who went to USA last year.. we were getting the check points for tomorrow and i just found out that the tasks the contestants have to do are everything to do with Brunei tradition and culture. its so much fun. im gonna be at checkpoint no.1 and the task is very interesting. i cant spill it now but lets just say, im looking forward to see the contestants give it a try. im excited to see the outcome. hehe. i might take pictures of it even, and post it up here. maybe. hehe.

OHMYGOD! guess what? some of the teachers in-charge of this whole thing are my teachers from Putri Masna! Sir Ariffin & Mr. Shai! hahaha. i was avoiding them but in the end, Sir Ariffin saw me and he was like "eh! kau!" hahaha. and it turns out, he's also in-charge of check point no.1 so i'll be stuck with him tomorrow. he's gonna bombard me with questions! :( im not ready to answer.. haha. FINGERS CROSSED! :p

oh something surprising just happened to me just now. my brother picked up my mobile phone and said "1 missedcall" there was actually none. suddenly the phone rang right after he said it! haha. i looked at the screen and it was a number i dont know.. then when i answered, this woman said "hello. Assalamualaikum. ini dari unit penderaan." *silent* "hello?...." *silent* "ini coporal(sp?) ####?" HAHAHAHAHAH! I WAS SO BANGANG! then i said no & she was like "oh bukan? minta maaf salah nombor" GILA! TAKUT KU SUDAH TU! hahahaha adakah UNIT PENDERAAN telefon aku! hahaha. i actually thought i did something wrong or i might be the next victim or something. haha mahnn i watch too much CSI, Criminal Minds, Bones, etc. hahaha. okay maybe this is a sign for me to take criminology. yes, i think so. criminology it is then :) nerbes ku eyh! *butterflies in tummy*

hmmm..yeahhh.. things are more interesting when im not in the house. haha. i should go out more. after the 30th i will. because for now im abit busy. but my busy is considered going out too.. so okay maybe today was the start of m interesting holiday. hehe. thats all i gotta say for now. will update more soon. toodles. :)

Spot the Diifference?

2010-11-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

we're both busy.

this is what i'm doing at the moment.

this is what he's doing at the moment.

KISS

2010-11-26T12:56:00.001+08:00

my version of KISS's Gene Simmons. hehehe

nice what? :)

Workshop

2010-11-25T23:30:00.000+08:00

i went to school today for the UCAS, PS workshop thingy and i stayed in the lecture room from 9am-12.15pm. WOW! i dont how i couldve stayed in there that long.. but yeah.. it was useful for me.. my friends ditched me though. haha they werent interested at all so i had to stay in the lecture by myself.

since i spent my the whole morning in the lecture room, i didnt get to talk to Wiyah, Fee, Bash and Qilly.. :( well, i did talk to Qilly early in the morning before we went in the lecture.... so i guess its mostly the other three.. BIBI, on the other hand, has gone all MIA on us all. or maybe just me. haha entah. VICHE! >:(

*sigh* i wanna spend more time with the girls.. ive always been out with the boys and i need my girl time! i spent most of last year with the boys and i forgot how fun it is to hangout with the girls.. now with the new girls, i would just love for us all to get together and just have some girl time.. but entah..

Anyways, Sufyan sent me home tadi. he said 'oh your parents nada?' cos my car wasnt in the garage. so i said, 'no lah. my dad sja kerja, my mum ada..' then when i knocked on the door and waited for like 10 minutes, i realised they all mustve gone out. even my mum. -__- so Sufyan was right. again -_-" why is he always right nowadays? haha im always right, he's always wrong. but nowadays he's always right bah..i guess its a sign. i sign to show that i should listen to other people too... haha KARMA! maybe? :p hehe i love my boy :) okay uhh... sidetracked. HAHA. so yeah, fortunately my neighbourhood is my nenek's, my aunts' place so i went to my aunts place to wait there till my parents come home. just as i reached their door and pressed the doorbell, i see my car zooming in my direction! HOORAH! naik kereta ke rumah terus... and we lived happily ever after. NATTT. the end.

okay bye. thats all for now. PEACE OUT (:

Stamford Test Result

2010-11-25T22:40:00.001+08:00

tell me bout it.

2010-11-23T17:48:00.000+08:00

hello. i havent been blogging for a while now.. i guess ive just been busy with exams and all.. but really, i just dont feel like sharing anything.. so maybe i should blog now.. since i have no better things to do at the moment.

So exams over now.. i returned all my books and folders to my tutors. i only have this one library book to return. it was due in january but i keep on forgetting so its way way way overdue now. i gotta pay something like $30 i think. do you think they'd hunt me down if i dont return the book? hmm.. hey i didnt say i was gonna do it, its just an idea. hehe. Well, now that thats done, i have to think about my courses, university choices, personal statement, UCAS, CV, etc. i still cant decide! i need help from my career's teacher. :( Thursday is the whole personal statement workshop at school so i might have extra help. i might wanna start photocopying all my certificates tomorrow so i can get it stamped soon.. i wonder if Yan's busy...maybe he could accompany me... yeah..

Then i have the whole adventure club meeting for the extreme challenge and orientation.. then im also volunteering in the Rediscover Brunei race thingy.. sooo may things to do.. want to see how full my schedule is? hmmm... lets see..

25th November- PersonalStatement workshop & Adventure club meeting

27th November- Go to Maktab Sains to set up booths and get t-shirts for Rediscover Brunei

28th November- Rediscover Brunei SHOWTIME!!!

30th November- appreciation dinner for the volunteers.

4th December- Adventure Club Extreme Challenge

.........i also have the adv club orintation in dec but i cant remember the date & also BDAC Lestari life skills training in Dec. then i have my own vacation for a bit.

after that, i need to start my work attachment, get a part time job to earn money, volunteer at HRD for the next UK exhibition. on top of that i also need to start hitting the gym as well as continuing my TaeKwon Do training.. SO LITTLE TIME, SO MUCH TO DO!

I NEED TO START PLANNING MY DAYS! ITS GONNA BE HECTIC! :( okay enough whining about my busy days. i guess thats all for now. will blog again soon. promise. (:

i miss my boys :')

2010-11-06T00:40:00.001+08:00

so watzzzzzz

2010-10-12T18:05:00.000+08:00

Life's been Good

2010-10-10T14:12:00.000+08:00

My life so far has been good. surrounded by wonderful people. couldnt ask for a more better life than this. i am grateful. thankful. this is the time when you look at everything you have and appreciate it. its just overwhelmingly wonderful. (:

So what else is new?

2010-10-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

he says im emo. deep inside. deep deep inside. hmm.. yeah sure whatever. maybe its true. i mean, who doesnt get emo from time to time right? hehe he knows me well. one of the reasons why i love him. yes you loser boy. i love you. <3

its soon. real soon.

2010-10-10T13:23:00.000+08:00

EXAM EXAM EXAM!!!!

Exam starts next week. as in tomorrow. but mine starts on wednesday sooooooo 2 more days till my Psychology AS exam! WOOT WOOT! cant wait to get this exam over and done with. for reallzzz ma niggazzzzzzz

One month and still counting :)

2010-10-01T23:49:00.002+08:00

The first time I met you, I didnt think I would fall in love with you...

BUT I DID.

Now im happier than I have ever been.

I love every little thing about you. even your flaws.

I Love You.

More than Winnie the Pooh loves his honey.

More than Tigger loves bouncing on his tail.

I Love You, Abu Sufyan Zainal Abidin.

For us both. :)

2010-09-17T16:47:00.003+08:00

Especially for you :)

2010-09-17T16:30:00.000+08:00

Funny Shit

2010-09-17T16:15:00.003+08:00

loving the feeling.

2010-09-15T13:31:00.002+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2010-09-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

Dengan ingatan tulus iklas, saya ingin mengucapkan

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

<3 Nureen Afeah Elyas.

Perfecto

2010-08-14T04:41:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. dont know why but this song is stuck in my head...

and as crazy as it sounds~ i think ive found the perfect wayy to grow old~

dont think ive found it yet but i have an idea of how i wanna grow old. ofcourse, who doesnt right?

anywayssssss......... 11th August was a good day. a memorable day. it was such an exciting day for me. so many different things happening all on the same day. we went from depressed to sentimental to anger to surprise to fear to heart-pouring moments to laughter to concerned to disbelief to LOTS AND LOTS OF THINGS! hahaha it was a very very very good day overall.

just a recap of what happened... i came to school late, didnt register but went in all my classes -__-" (so rajin right?) then uhh.. lunch, hanna had her 'talk'.. then waited till 2o'clock for the rest to come out of class.. errr.... then i had my own 'talk' with Sufyan.

yeaaaaaaaaaaaa

scary shit

2010-07-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

uhhhmmmmmmmm it was a good night. hehehe yeahhh.... :)))) it was so good, im scared.

you

2010-07-23T18:09:00.001+08:00

you got me like oh my gosh~ im sooo in love. ;)

:) :) :)

2010-07-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

okay ive been coming to school with a big smile on my face the past few days...
ive been happy the past few days...

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY

Since when? oh uhh since.. 18th July! hehehehehehe

you make me so happy that i come home tired from smiling and laughing with you. GAHHHH you you you! <3

new page

2010-07-23T17:48:00.000+08:00

okay im over that.
*breathe in breathe out
*in with the new out with the old

lies lies lies

2010-07-23T17:45:00.002+08:00

FUCK!!!!!! :(

Alzheimer's Disease

2010-07-02T17:05:00.000+08:00

i was on my way home from school and the car radio was on. there was this 'ceramah' on the radio and i listened to it. then the dude said something like 'if you easily forget about things dont take it lightly. it could be signs of alzheimer's disease. you will get it when you grow older' i rephrased it ofcourse. he said it in a 'ceramah-y' way.. haha. but yeahhh that caught my attention. it made me scared because i forget about things easily. i usually cant seem to recall what i did the day before. i think i kind of became paranoid afterwards. i started thinking about what would happen if i got married, have kids, and got alzheimer's at a young age/mid-30s... i would not be able to recognise my husband, my kids. they'd think id forgotten about them but i wont be able to help it because its a disease! i was watching this korean movie about alzheimer's and i cried real bad.it was so sad. thats why i got scared and paranoid. like, what if i'll get alzheimer's when i get older? what would happen to me? to my family? how will i live? this was a few days ago i think. or maybe like a week ago.

BUT what really made me think about it today was what happened this morning. i was in the shower and i washed my hands with soap. then i washed my face using a facial cleanser. while i was watching my face, i thought 'eh! cuci tangan sudah kah tadi?' i washed thhe soap off my face immediately and washed my hands. THEN i remembered that i did wash my hands. already! these kinds of things happen to me all the time. its kinda like a short-term memory loss thing. i always end up doing the same thing twice because i dont remember doing it the first time. well, i got really scared this morning that i googled Azheimer's Disese.

YES! i actually googled it! haha well, it turns out that the symtoms are way worse than what im experiencing. what im experiencing is only normal because we also forget things as we age right? so its not a big deal. its not Alzheimer's. i dont have it. im just a normal forgetful person because i hit my head. thats all. nothing much.

ALHAMDULILLAH!

is it too much to hope?

2010-07-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

okay now comes the serious shit.

i came across something earlier tonight and i dont know why but somehow i was convinced that you were in on this thing that i prefer you not to. you get me? i just really wish that you would not join them in this thing they're doing. you follow? okay lets put it this way:-

Peter became friends with Jane and the gang. Jane and the gang likes to bungee jump. i think that Peter has become interested in bungee jumping and tried it. Peter became addicted to it. so now Peter goes out with Jane and the gang almost all of the time to go bungee jumping. i, personally, dont like Peter going bungee jumping because its dangerous. who knows what might happen right?

so yeaaa... i am concerned about you. i dont know why i even care but i do. i really do. i mean, you're my friend, i should care. thats one of the reasons. but i think its also because ive known you for like since i was born i think. And i have this feeling that somehow im looking out for you for your mum. i dont know why. but i just feel that way. its like ive known ur mum all my life and i.....owe it to her?... something like that. i dont know ehh... i just know part of whats happening in that house which makes me feel like im part of the family. thats all.

ps: i dont even know if u're really doing what they're doing. i just think you are. but i hope not.

First of July!!!

2010-07-01T21:51:00.000+08:00

EHMYYGODDDDDD! its already the 1st of July!!!! its a new month. which meansssssss................. a new start (again). its july already. the mock exam is coming soon... so this new start = studying during free periods, coming to school early, doing homeworks and handing in on time. hmm.. what else? well yeah, its mostly about school stuff because that is my top priority at the moment.

GET ORGANISED, NUREEN!

This especially means my history work. *sighhh* i hope i can get myself back on track. not that i am off track at the moment. im just not riding the train as smoothly and calmly as i should be. essays are underway though.. it should be fine. things should be fine. *breathe in breathe out* *meditating* haha okayyy

my badness

2010-07-01T21:39:00.000+08:00

i feel like blogging again. hehe

first things first. i apologise for the spelling mistakes and the not-so-perfect english on my previous postS. malas ku kan edit wah. so to the very tired youknowww.... so yeah, sorry. forgive and forget okay? hehe

2010-07-01T01:53:00.001+08:00

i want to post up pictures but im just tooooo lazyyyyyy.. i know some people are waiting for pictures.... sorry you guys, i just dont have enough energy to da that. maybe tomorrow.. yeahh maybe....

i am now downloading songsss... lagu jiwang kah yang ku dngar ani? biartia ehh..
okay kucing di luar bebunyi terus. haha i think they're crying along with my heart because in listening to a jiwang song.. hmmm............okay now the cats are annoying me. bisai sudah tadi peace and quiet.

oh its peace and quite now.... HECK! I SPOKE TOO SOON!

what i ended up uploading. just this. just because its new. like recently.

jetlagged???

2010-07-01T01:21:00.002+08:00

i shall blog until i find the need to sleep. okayzzz

for consideration

2010-06-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

i think you could be the perfect person for the job. there's just that one thing, and that other thing. and that other thing. and also that other thing. why are there so many things? is it just an excuse? *sigh.......

the things you think about. when you should really be taking action instead.

29th June 2010

2010-06-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

helewwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im gonna blog abit before i go to sleep. so here goes. hehe.

i think i had fun today. finally had some random conversation with the girls and boys today. no serious business. no drama. no nothing! haha thats the type of conversations i love. it was fun. everybody was included in the conversation. we didnt have to listen to a specific person. we listened to everybody. hehe.

OH OHH!!! guess what?! i FINALLY heard my song today! Abu Sufyan wrote/made/composed a song about me during the school holidays. and he sang it to me today! i LOVE the song! L.O.V.E LOVE IT! haha because its about me. and its so true. ilovemyfriend. he's sooo baik. :') hahaha <3 man i cant wait to hear it lagi esok.

okay hmmmmmm what else happened?... oh something else happened. but im not gonna say it here. for me only. hehe. hmmm what else? oh the football tounry thingy was okay.. we were so lazy to sell anything, we were like "self-service" ahh. hahah most of us were tired bah! i havent even counted how much we earned the past few days. haha karang tah sebelum tidur.

okay i think thats all for now. thats all that happened today. ofcourse, i didnt write it indetails. saya malas. and theres no need to anyways. alright goodnight.

it was a good day overall. i shall remember today. :)

Night

2010-06-28T03:36:00.000+08:00

okay i should really sleep now. goodnight all. it'll probably a while before i blog again. as always.. hehe..
hope the pictures and the comics will entertain you for now.
toodles!

I love Cyanide and happiness comics!

2010-06-28T03:12:00.000+08:00

this made me laugh. HAHA. because this is what im going through with the boys at school. haha.. funny.

get it? get it? he gets a lot of asses. haha

HAHAH kiss my internal bleeding so its gone. please and thank you :)

in my opinion, this is what women do. world peace. haha we always know how to make men laugh and be happy. hehe

awwwwwwwwwwww men can be sweet too.. hehehe

HAHA Baie. menakutkan orang. nda jadi kawin oleh nya. hahaha

wonders of the world

2010-06-28T02:45:00.003+08:00

Wouldnt it be a great idea if, you know, you would, like, tell the whole world that im yours?

Wouldnt it be a great idea if you just tell me right here right now?

Wouldnt it be a great idea if i really do actually have someone to tell the whole world to?

damnation.

sometimes i wish there really is a 'you'. because its been a while since ive had a spark with someone.

but sometimes i wish people would just leave me alone, let me study and let me be successful.

i dont know anymoreee... but i do know that i have to concentrate on that studying bit.

its just.. it'll be nice to have someone always around. you know that feeling?.. yeahhh.... that....

SCHOOL!

2010-06-28T02:27:00.000+08:00

i have school tomorrow.. and im not asleep yet...

i have to say that i do make mistakes in school. so the picture above describes exactly how i think. at least we get to learn from the mistakes right? likeyeah i'll make another mistake but hey, its better than yesterday's mistake. i guess thats just how i get through my life in school. because in the end, i know that all those mistakes i made were worth it. i'll end my school year mistake-free. damn straight!

hehehe

2010-06-28T02:05:00.003+08:00

isnt this just so adorable? hehehe

Energy Booster

2010-06-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

GERMANY AND ENGLAND ARE PLAYING AGAINST EACH OTHER! like, right now... hehe and i think england will lose tonight. :( go germany! :)

heyyy its time to blog again. kekekeke

mann i wokee up and did friggin hard labour today! kinda. sorta. well, in a way lah! haha i am swamped! baked! apa lagi? haha..

anywaysss im supposed to be doing my homework now... but i just finished all the hard manual labour so i deserve time to relax/doing something i like. hehehehe

2010-06-11T02:16:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAH i think i am this now. hehe

but i was this. *sigh*

2010-06-11T02:10:00.002+08:00

found this shizz and i liked it.

2010-06-11T01:46:00.000+08:00

Just Because. :)

i believe

2010-06-11T01:43:00.001+08:00

yeah i believe in my friends.
they may come and go. but they made my life easier when they stayed.
we may fight and make up. that just shows that we'll be there for each other through our ups and downs. thick and thin.
because we coooo' like that!

For all my friends,

2010-06-11T01:35:00.000+08:00

2010-06-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

world peace

2010-06-11T01:18:00.002+08:00

2010-06-11T01:14:00.000+08:00

damn straight.

Fun

2010-06-10T18:18:00.001+08:00

found these pictures. brings back old memories.

.BIG FUN.

the team:

TaeKwon Do Brunei Fighters

national team.

spring cleaning!

2010-06-10T18:12:00.000+08:00

i cleaned my room today.. it looks cleaner. sedap mata memandang. hahah finally! i am motivated to do homework! but just when i am motivated to, i'll be busyyyyy............... i wont have time to do homework till uhhh nextweek? maybe. *sighhh........... cobaannnnnnn. haha apakan. my sister said this tadi so its stuck in my head. hehe.

Most waited event of the year.

2010-06-10T11:55:00.003+08:00

MORNING MORNING MORNING BODY BODEHHHHH

hehehe im excited. you know why? i'll tell you why. BECAUSE........

one more day to.......................................
*drumrolls*..............................................

FIFA WORLD CUP BAYBEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

WOOT WOOT!

WOOHOOOOOO!

YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEE!

HEHEHEHEHEHEHHE <3

a treasure

2010-04-23T11:19:00.000+08:00

just something i found.

2010-04-18T11:32:00.004+08:00

so my friends have been watching this video in school and it caught my attention. the song is so cute! and it rhymes like crazy. haha apakan. but yeah its just cute.

Perfect Two by Auburn

so yeah, enjoy!

Perfect Two by Auburn

2010-04-18T11:23:00.003+08:00

a blast

2010-04-18T11:08:00.002+08:00

im so tired.

I HAD A GREAT TIME WIZ ZE COUSINS LAST NIGHT!

well nothing much happened. we just went to a gig and ate then balik. well we hung out lah most of last night. so yea we got to talking and it was a whole lot of fun. why?because i havent been hanging out with them! its been FOREVER! like gilerzzzzz. for realzzz yo! hahahaha.

it was also my first ride with Abdul Aziz a.k.a AJ. hujan hujan lagi tu jalan ah. hujan lebat! yang drive ani lagi org baru dapat lesen. DANGEROUS! hahah

And thank you Faiz a.k.a Pai for the credit and the treat.

And Abdul Mateen a.k.a Mateen? (haha) for melayan-ing kakngah dalam kereta ahh..

GIG at Jerudong mini-amphitheatre

2010-04-18T09:40:00.001+08:00

this is how i woke up this morning from my late night out with the cousins. HAHA mati eh, mascara eyeliner apa masih ada. rosak muka eh cemani ani. i went home, cleaned up the kitchen and fell asleep on my bed straight away. hahah i was damn tired.

Happpy Birthday QillyAG

2010-03-19T11:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Siti Aqilah Zubaidah Abdul Ghani! hehe.. i know i know. but you gotta just face the fact. it is your name. haha.. anyways, happy birthday love. im sorry we didnt get you a cake or a surprise kinda thing because i am seriously broke. im even considering getting a job cuti ani cos im that broke. so yeahh.. i just hope that us being there for you and making an effort to make your day is good enough. hopefully.

i just want to say that despite what everybody say or think about you, im still your friend. i do trust you and all. but you know how you can get overexcited and start being annoying. thats annoying. haha. but yeah, i got used to that. like i said, im immune to you i guess. maybe since you're old enough now, i'll stop you when you go 'overboard'. hehe. i just want you to know that its for your own good and please dont take it personally. i also want to say im very grateful for everything you've done for me, whatever it may be, small or big things. im grateful, thankful, i appreciate EVERYTHING! you're also one of the greatest things thats ever happened to me because i experienced a whole different life with you. like, its a whole new experience with you lah because now i have an idea of viewing the world from your perspective. so i guess what im trying to say is that im glad to have met you and i guess im one of the lucky bastards to be friends with you. haha.

happy birthday Qilly, all the best in life. may you be blessed with health, wealth and i pray to God you wont grow up to be an old scrooge. if you know what i mean. hehe. Lets just pray that in 20 years from now we wont just pass by like the wind when we meet at the supermarket. hopefully we'll be grocery shopping together and gossip about how people have changed while thanking our strong friendship.

okay thats a long post. i hope i said everything i wanted to say. if not, i'll post a continuation. haha.

xoxo,

Nureen Afeah Elyas. <3

school holiday

2010-03-17T17:30:00.000+08:00

alright. i guess thats all from me now. i'll blog again soon.

HAPPY HOLIDAY ALL!

Filipino Jokes

2010-03-17T17:03:00.004+08:00

so i found this joke on you tube. its pani! haha to lighten the mood a lil bit. have fun!

confessions of a broken-hearted

2010-03-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

okay, so im not gonna delete anything. i just want to say a few things about it.

i guess i was a little bit wrong. well, wrong isnt the word, more like my fault, my bad. i never meant to hurt anybody. i didnt do things intentionally. if im not mistaken i was just depressed at the time. i was feeling a lot of things. i was moody, bummed, i felt left out, isolated... i just got caught by the moment. i guess thats what made me say all those things. i didnt think that it would hurt anybody's feelings. i didnt think it would make someone think something thats unlikely.

i guess what im trying to say is that im sorry for causing such hurt to some people. i never meant to do such things. i just want you to know that i do appreciate my friends, my new friends. I LOVE YOU ALL. we have a totally different connection. good different. and i shouldnt have compared it to anything else.

i hope things will go back to normal.i hope we can just forget about what happened. dont look back. just keep moving forward. and i also hope i can control what i say. or better yet, i'll tell my new friends what i feel. i'll share so they undersatnd what im going through. hopefully, they'll do the same things too.

i didnt want to delete my previous posts because from there we can learn what happened and we can understand and we can make sure it wont happen again.

result!

2010-03-17T15:27:00.000+08:00

Yeay! we did what we had to do and lets just say, WE DID IT! WOOHOO! WOOTWOOT! haha

point of concern

2010-03-17T09:15:00.000+08:00

hi. aku sindir kau. kau salah faham. like what???

point of clarification

2010-03-17T07:29:00.000+08:00

oh just so you all know. this 'friend' isnt the one ive been whining about since lastyear. not my 'bestfriend'. this one is a new friend who i thought would understand everything i do or say. who i thought is mature enough to handle things like adults. she would confront someone if she doesnt like her ways. but somehow this time i dont know what happened. im just soo confused. she now rolls her eyes and is on silent terms with me. i just dont get it. just when i thought she's the kind of friend who is a real friend. buttttttttt... people change. so only god knows whats gotten into her..

metaphor?

2010-03-17T07:17:00.000+08:00

*sigh.. its a shame things have to go down this road. i really really dont know what went wrong. i guess we took a detour from the main road and got lost on the way. hopefully we'll find our way back as soon as possible.

JengJengJeng...

2010-03-17T07:10:00.000+08:00

today's the day! i think we're old enough now to be acting like adults. lets not be childish about this. but if things dont work out then fine, we wont bother anymore. we will make an effort to get our 'friend' back. if she does not want to be friends with us, then we wont waste our time trying to fix whats broken. got it?

just dont you come crawling back begging for mercy.

2010-03-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MUSIC!

MUSIC IS MY LIFE!

MUSIC MAKES ME HAPPY!

2010-03-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

okay im out. this is getting in my head. i ignore people with that kind of attitude. you're just wasting my time, my energy, my effort.

like i said, people like you dont deserve to be called 'FRIENDS'.

dead of night

2010-03-13T00:51:00.000+08:00

and this is what happens when im still awake in the middle of the night. why am i talkinga bout these things? people arent supposed to know about this shiz. oh fudge it. its a blog. people express their feelings here all the time. fudge everything.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARHAN!

2010-03-12T23:53:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUHAMMAD FARHAN BIN AZAMA!!!

wow! umm where should i start with my 'few words'. hmm... well lets seee... we've been friends for more than a year and uhh we've become real close. like bestfriends. like brother and sister. that why i love you. you're like a brother to me. we went through our ups and downs together... it was a hell of a ride. but what hurt me the most was what happened this year. may be its the 'drama', maybe its because of your break up or heartache.. i dont know. im not sure but i just feel like we're drifting apart. what hurt me was how you could let that incident change things between us. i criticised you. i know you were angry about what i did. but i was angry at you too. i was angry at what you did. you said 'she' was acting childish. but you were acting childish too. i only pointed it out to you. and you had to go allllll the wayyyyyyy by not talking to me for weeks! you know im ego! i wouldnt want to be the first person to break the silence! especially when i think that its not my fault! then i decided since we've been friends long, i should do something for you. since your birthday was also coming up, i got you a cake. i made you a birthday surprise. then we started talking again. when i asked you why, you said you were shy. right.

now we're talking again. but things werent the way it used to be. we used to 'talk'. like really talk. not ask and answer with a word only! i realise that you're rarely there anymore. you're drifting away from me. i think im losing you. i think im losing my bestfriend, my brother. i promised her i'd take care of you. she wouldnt let me do that if we werent so close. how am i supposed to take care of you now?

i just want you to know that even through ups and downs, thick and thin, i'll always be there for you. i'll always be by your side. i wont take sides but i will tell you whats right whats wrong, i will tell you whats better whats bad. i will tell you who's right who's wrong. all you have to do is listen. whether you want to follow it, its your choice. i wont stop you.

where has all the enthusiasm gone?

2010-03-12T23:19:00.001+08:00

okay i have a late post to post up. you'll see after this but let me explain first. i just remembered that i used to post up pictures and say a few words whenever my friends' birthdays come up. so yea its 2010 and im gonna start doing that again. my next post is a late birthday post. well, thats the story of my life. im always late for something.im only not late when im enthusiastic about something. which only shows that im not enthusiastic about this birthday post. you'll read it in my explanation in the next post. dont worry. sighhh so basically, i want to post it up but im not enthusiastic about it. with whats been going on lately, i rarely feel enthusiastic about anything anymore. so..... faham faham lah sendiri.

I LOVE! I WANT! I NEED!

2010-02-24T15:30:00.002+08:00

Cheetahs and cubs

Tiger and cubs

I LOVE THESE CUTE LITTLE/BIG CREATURES! AGHHHH

ohh i sooooo want to rent a pair of tigers... they are just so adorable. and im not talking about the cubs! haha the cubs are even more adorable!

2010-02-24T13:49:00.000+08:00

i miss blogging. i really do. thats why im posting lots today.. because i am bored. eventhough i should be doing my homework.... but..... anyways.

sometimes i forget that i have a blog wa... thats why everytime i use the internet i rarely blog. and i just remembered this morning that i actually have a blog! hahah funnehhh...

Two of my favourite people

2010-02-24T11:40:00.001+08:00

I LOVE THESE PICTURES!

Oopsy daisies

2010-02-24T10:42:00.001+08:00

Okay. hmm.. my bad.. yes i didnt go to school today. well, more like im not going to school today. its still 10:35 and i can still go and reach there before psychology class. but............ hehehehe saya ngalih wa... so yea, im just gonna stay at home. sleep some more later. do my homework essays and stuff.

But for now, im just going to lay off a little bit. i'll sleep in the afternoon. hehe.

p/s: i had a great breakfast at delifrance this morning. its been a while. tapi si Duan nada.. i was looking forward to see him.. *sigh...

On a Wednesday Morning

2010-02-24T10:21:00.000+08:00

I woke up early in the morning today to hantar my Nenek and Atok to the airport. They're going to Singapore...

My Atok's appointment with the doctor will be tomorrow. So now it all depends. If the doctor says he needs to undergo surgery then Nenek and Atok will stay in Singapore for 3-4months... :(

Atok is getting knee replacements. yes with an 's'. for both knees.

Hopefully things will go well. All we can do is pray for his safety and health.

To start anew

2010-02-23T15:29:00.002+08:00

Its a new dawn, Its a new day, Its a new life...

2010. I am ready to conquer and be conquered.

From A to Z

2010-02-23T14:57:00.002+08:00

Well hello there! it has been a really really really long time since i last blogged. mannnn its been ages! anyways, since its my first post this year, let me just say...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

HAPPY 2010!

And well, considering the date today, i also want to say...
HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY BRUNEI!!!!!

Its the 23rd of Februay today. so yes.. hehehe

After so long......

2009-11-30T11:38:00.000+08:00

2009-11-20T11:27:00.000+08:00

i saw this old picture and it reminded me of the good times..

*sigh..

OMGGGG

2009-11-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! berapa tahun sudah saya meninggalkan blog ini? saya pun tidak tahu. saya ada hidup yang begitu sibuk sehingga tidak ada masa untuk blog lagi.. hahaha

Secret Smile

2009-09-27T01:58:00.001+08:00

i see you almost everyday. you make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me blush even! haha. cant shake that feeling off. why oh why.. suka ku liat muka mu ahh.. suka benar ku.. melompat jantung ku wah meliat ahh.. haha..

Just give me that smile already! eh no no, i changed my mind. eh bah okay tah, i changed my mind again. eh jangan tah ehh, nda ku mau ehh.. eh tapi.... what the eff! i cant make up my mind. sorry. that smile is just too good to be true. hehe

Goodbye.

2009-09-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

My sister is flying off this thursdayy!!! 1st October. nada tah orang bawa saya jalan2 ni.. haha lain tia pulang.. but yes, she's flying off soon.. =((( hopefully my parents will send me there in December. my winter vacation. hopefully.

right then

2009-09-27T01:11:00.001+08:00

okay i was bored wa... and i painted my pinky with red nail polish. lawa colour nyaaa... and and look at that cacat finger next to my pinky. ada cerita tu di sebaliknya. haha.. luan samsengg.. hahaha

aww i miss this hair..my fringe looks awful now. its longer. i dont wanna cut it yet. im trying to grow my hair sampai panjang so i have to tahan myself from going to the salon and cut it short. hehe..

cranky

2009-09-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

somethings wrong with the connection. lambat ahh... mcm payah ku kan buka websites ahh... boo..

another loss.

2009-09-26T01:22:00.003+08:00

i thought this year would be better.. but i thought wrong. academically, yes maybe its better. personally, no its not. 2009 was supposed to be a whole new world for me!

my year started with a few sad losses, unexpected losses, surprising losses. i dont know how to do this! ive never been through this before! this is why i try to avoid things like this from happening. even though im not that close with some of my losses, but they're still family! then i start imagining what if what if thoughts.. oh gaddd...

oh well theres nothing i can do about it. whats lost is lost. i just have to be strong for these kinds of things.. remember the good times, let go of the bad times. hopefully, there wont be any more losses anytime soon. (even though my atok keeps on joking around about HIS 'doomsday'.. adakah cematu.. heh)

Al-Fatihah to Uncle Jack, Nenek Long, Tok Yakub, Padilah Amit, Nenek Iring, Nenek Mala. May you all rest in peace.

Selamat Hari Raya.

2009-09-26T01:04:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya everybody. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Forgive me for all my wrong doings. if ever i hurt your feelings or said or did something inappropriate, please forgive me, i probably didnt mean to do it or i was just caught in the moment. heh.

Even though im not in the mood to celebrate raya this year, i hope you all have fun celebrating. okay?

p/s: i'd like it if the people who hurt me asks me for their forgiveness. im not quite sure if there are any, but... i'd just like it. enough said.

is the loving to the core of my heart

2009-09-18T20:16:00.003+08:00

they say we look the same. do we? this is my family, I LOVE YOU! lub youhh very very deep in my heart. deep as deep deep. HAHA. tpi mcm ada seorang missing kan adik ku ani.. mana ya ah? inda ikut begambar ahh.. heh.

colourful

2009-09-14T22:12:00.004+08:00

i'd like it if you do.

kiyoooooootttttttttt. suka ku liat ahh

ani wah. suka ku liat tangan-tangan ani. colorful lagi tu.
manis. hehe

Thank You? Yes, Thank You.

2009-09-13T01:19:00.012+08:00

I've been meaning to post something about this ages ago but i was so busy i didnt have time to go on the internet. so yea... Anyways, this post is a THANK YOU! post especially for Fauzi Samat! hehe.. why? because i just realised that i actually spent my birthday (yes, on the day itself) with Fauzi. haha.. we went to HuaHo and kami SHOPPING! eh! jangan lupa belikan aku kasut di Charles and Keith yang ku tunjukkan kau ahh. hahah.. so yea, thank you Fauzi for spending the day with me. you know my situation jua kan about the 'girlfriends' thing. hehe..
okay thats all i have to say i guess. well, maybe for now. hehe.. =) Thanks Zie.

Love,
Feah. xoxo

P/S: i hunted for pictures of us and here's what i found. its not much. heh.

macam bahagia kami atuu... HAHAHA

ani nah gambar mu yang ku suka.. hehe..

hmmm... i just felt like uploading this. good times. =)

awww... and look at all the girls around you who loves you.. haha
and i think kau keberatan because i sat on your lap. hahah

you're so baik to me you even want to urut me.. HAHA

I like this picture tapi kau nda liat the camera..

That's all Folks!

P/P/S: I Love You Fauzi. thank you for being there for me whenever i need you. you know i care about you. even though you annoy me sometimes. =D but i know thats just a show you put on. hehe.. =p

With lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses, Feah. your long lost friend who is always baik to you when other people arent. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEPTEMBER BABI-ES!

2009-09-11T14:33:00.009+08:00

Qays, Mali, Faid and Wazien!
happy birthday kamuu..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AK. MUHAMMAD WAZIEN IKHWAN BIN PG IKRAM! dan AHMAD FAID CHONG ISMAT! hahaha. aku inda tau if betul atau inda nama kamu atu tapi asalkan ada nama kamu, bersyukur tah. okay? hehe. anyways, happy 18th to Wazien! berakal tahh.. HAHAHA and and happy 19th to Faid/Chong! aku baru tau yang umur mu 19.. hehe..

.Faid/Chong.
Chong! aku nada gambar sama kau so aku ambil2 saja dari orang. hahah
handsome kau atu chong ehh.. hahaha

.Wazien Ikram.
walaupun gambar ku bida sini tapi asalkan birthday boy nya handsome! hahah

Happy Birthday Shol!

2009-08-19T18:37:00.005+08:00

Birthday Boy. ooopss salah. birthday MAN. hehe.

Happy 20th Birthday Nasrullah Adanan!!!!! hehe. im glad to have met you because you are so friggin' FUNNY! hahaha. and and even though sitting beside you in class is dangerous, aku banyak ketawa jua pasal kau! haha. yeah.. yang penting, kau selalu buat aku ketawa lah.. you make us ALL laugh. thats why we love you Shol. && even though i found you creepy weird at first, because you remember everything about me, my sister, my car and all that (haha), i found you funny sudah from there. hehe.

sorry we couldnt do anything for your birthday this morning because Prince Azim came kan so it was pretty hectic tadii.. But uhh hopefully you had fun at school and all. and i know i wished you a happy birthday like balik-balik. macam everytime i see you kan aku wish kau atuu.. haha. so yea.. im broke jua so i cant buy you a cake or anything. hehe. but i did give you a birthday present right? the MENTOS chewing gum i gave you in Psychology class.. yea... haha

Anywayyyy...... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOL! again. hehe. we love you. stay funny. like Bibi said, dont you dare change! especially for a girl. okay? :)

Love, Nureen. <3

poker!

2009-08-19T17:42:00.003+08:00

so i learned how to play poker early this year i think, and i kept on losing. so i kept telling myself to play on facebook as practice. haha. but of course, i never did. hehe. then a few days ago, i just felt like playing poker on facebook because i didnt have anything to do. so i played! and well, i lost. over and over again. haha. i won a few times but yeah, thats just a few times. Gaddddddddd!!!!! inda dapat play poker in real life ni mun cemani ani. haha kalah saja ahh! apa ni.. haha. palui kali.. so yea.. i can never gamble. haha okay thaTS all. oh wait, i had a point tadii.. apa ahh?.. oh yea, i have become addicted to poker now. HAHAHA. walaupun kalah saja, main jua masih. dayyyuuuummmmmmmm. okay. bye bye now. =)

GI Joe!

2009-08-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

I watched GI Joe!!!!!!!!!!!! it was awesome! The movie was awesome! Channing Tatum was Awesomus Prime! haha.. but seriously, I LOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. hmmmm.. i love. <3

You You You

2009-08-15T18:46:00.007+08:00

This guy memajal ahh.. the Stalker Check thinggyyy on facebook ahh. he's number 13, which is his number but he wants to be number 1. i checked this a long long time ago. so he wants me to check it again.

This is now. August.

This was in July.

Masih jua inda number 1! hahaha. prasan wah this guy kan jadi number1 stalker. haha.

2009-08-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

aku mau upload photos. but i dont know what photos to upload. HAHAHA. hmmm...

confused

2009-08-15T17:24:00.002+08:00

i've been hearing and seeing on Facebook that June AS level results are out. but i dont know if they're true or not. I want to know my results juaaa.... hopefully they're better than last year's. I'll score this November's. i must i must i must. its the only way to go. nyehhh..