Ferreals?

Really? Really?? i dont get it. okay ive gone crazy. talking to myself. anyways...

yknow ive always thought people who asks me personal questions are kind of invading my privacy. my personal space. like it makes me go "mind your own business okaysss!!!" 

but now that i really think about it, you cant really expect people to just come up to you and immediately rant about their thoughts and feelings and problems and happiness. right? 

i dont know if this makes me bimbotic or stupid  or just 'slow' (LOL) but i guess people have to ask you to know how youre doing. whats going on in your life. are you okay or not..yeah. thats gotta be it.

forgive me if i look like i dont care. im not good with this. this social interaction. i guess after what happened it made it harder for me to become close with people and open up. 

and you know what? yes, these 'people' im talking about are my friends. theyre my friends but i still feel that im not close enough with them. i feel that im still not trustworthy enough for them to tell me anything. hence, i dont ask them things. hence, it makes me look like i dont care. therefore, the distant feelings. 

please forgive me. :(

'Twas the night...

That night was da' bomb! LOL. I had so much fun. Although, i do feel a little bit guilty but uh... yeahhh. okay. lol. the only downside of the whole night was the first band sucked.they sucked balls! hahahaha okay they sucked. they sang slow lovey dovey songs and most of us just wanted up-beat songs to dance around to yknow.. well, thats not really the downside, the MAJOR DOWNSIDE of the night was not having my two baby girls there with me! Bibi Hasnan and Bashirah Maidin! a song came on, one we used to sing all the time, and i got excited to sing along to it and i was hoping these two girls to sing with me but then i remembered they weren't there. :( LOSERS! hehe. kidding. love you two. :p i bet we would've danced without a care in the world. like we did that one time at that dinner. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU MISSED OUT ON THAT! >:( okay i want to cry like dis. :( hehe well, now i just cant wait to see you girls. we should really have a sleepover. we need to catch up and cry and laugh and cry and laugh over and over again. LOL. <3

anyways, i wish all my girls were there.. we were also missing Hanna and Wiyah! If all my girls were there, i would've had a crazier night. that night would've been more than da'bomb! lol.

I MISS YOU GIRLS ALLLOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Hair and Make-up trial

 

so, i actually just cannot decide on which hair-do to 'do'. LOL.

i seriously do not have a clue. oh mahn this is bad..

but anyways...

It's a rap!

yeahh... haha apakan. lol :p

ive already made the mistake of not doing something and regretting it. so now, im going to try my best to live without any regrets. please please please make this work for me this time. this might be my greatest regret. 

i feel like ive disappointed you more than once and maybe this is karma. i dont even know if i believe in karma! but i believe that i made the biggest mistake. and here i am running back to you, taking a chance, hoping against hope you havent given up on me. what i did probably made you hate me. (i hope not though. hehe). please forgive me for what i did. i think right now im feeling what you felt back then. guess i now can say 'i know how you feel' and actually mean it. i'll wait. i will. :)

now or never?

so here's the thing.. im supposed to be studying but uhhhh....there's been a lot of procrastinating going on. HEHEH. i studied that one noght for like half an hour kali sja. LOL. and i was supposed to be making notes but in the end, my paper was empty. hmm.. thats bad.. right? hahah

oh well! there's always tomorrow. :p

(yatah nada tu nahh..)

A girl's gotta do.....

.... what a girl's gotta do. LOL :p

excuse my open-ness. lol

2011

ITS A NEW DAY 

ITS A NEW WORLD

ITS A NEW LIFE!!!

I just realised that i havent made a 'Happy New Year' post. im not gonna do it now btw because thats just pointless being almost 4 months late. LOL. if you read my old posts, you can see that my happy new year post is always late.every year. ahwell, story of my life. no?

well, lets see.. a lot of things have changed since 1st January. and let me tell you something, I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW! SERIOUSLY, i thought i was happy then, with ..., but now im so much happier! why you ask? because ive never felt more closer to Allah than i am now. i am at peace. :)

p/s: i am no longer with ...... so lets just ignore the old posts. kthnxbye. :)

p/p/s: i'd like to keep the posts anyway to remind me of what happened. whether good or bad. kthnxbye. :)

The Start

i woke up late this morning. at 12.30pm? what is that? morning? afternoon? whatever it is, i woke up late. i got up, took a shower, ate lunch and got ready to go to Maktab Sains. im volunteering in the Rediscover Brunei race organised by the Youth Programme student who went to USA last year.. we were getting the check points for tomorrow and i just found out that the tasks the contestants have to do are everything to do with Brunei tradition and culture. its so much fun. im gonna be at checkpoint no.1 and the task is very interesting. i cant spill it now but lets just say, im looking forward to see the contestants give it a try. im excited to see the outcome. hehe. i might take pictures of it even, and post it up here. maybe. hehe.

OHMYGOD! guess what? some of the teachers in-charge of this whole thing are my teachers from Putri Masna! Sir Ariffin & Mr. Shai! hahaha. i was avoiding them but in the end, Sir Ariffin saw me and he was like "eh! kau!" hahaha. and it turns out, he's also in-charge of check point no.1 so i'll be stuck with him tomorrow. he's gonna bombard me with questions! :( im not ready to answer.. haha. FINGERS CROSSED! :p

oh something surprising just happened to me just now. my brother picked up my mobile phone and said "1 missedcall" there was actually none. suddenly the phone rang right after he said it! haha. i looked at the screen and it was a number i dont know.. then when i answered, this woman said "hello. Assalamualaikum. ini dari unit penderaan." *silent* "hello?...." *silent* "ini coporal(sp?) ####?" HAHAHAHAHAH! I WAS SO BANGANG! then i said no & she was like "oh bukan? minta maaf salah nombor" GILA! TAKUT KU SUDAH TU! hahahaha adakah UNIT PENDERAAN telefon aku! hahaha. i actually thought i did something wrong or i might be the next victim or something. haha mahnn i watch too much CSI, Criminal Minds, Bones, etc. hahaha. okay maybe this is a sign for me to take criminology. yes, i think so. criminology it is then :) nerbes ku eyh! *butterflies in tummy*

hmmm..yeahhh.. things are more interesting when im not in the house. haha. i should go out more. after the 30th i will. because for now im abit busy. but my busy is considered going out too.. so okay maybe today was the start of m interesting holiday. hehe. thats all i gotta say for now. will update more soon. toodles. :)