Ferreals?

Really? Really?? i dont get it. okay ive gone crazy. talking to myself. anyways...

yknow ive always thought people who asks me personal questions are kind of invading my privacy. my personal space. like it makes me go "mind your own business okaysss!!!" 

but now that i really think about it, you cant really expect people to just come up to you and immediately rant about their thoughts and feelings and problems and happiness. right? 

i dont know if this makes me bimbotic or stupid  or just 'slow' (LOL) but i guess people have to ask you to know how youre doing. whats going on in your life. are you okay or not..yeah. thats gotta be it.

forgive me if i look like i dont care. im not good with this. this social interaction. i guess after what happened it made it harder for me to become close with people and open up. 

and you know what? yes, these 'people' im talking about are my friends. theyre my friends but i still feel that im not close enough with them. i feel that im still not trustworthy enough for them to tell me anything. hence, i dont ask them things. hence, it makes me look like i dont care. therefore, the distant feelings. 

please forgive me. :(

'Twas the night...

That night was da' bomb! LOL. I had so much fun. Although, i do feel a little bit guilty but uh... yeahhh. okay. lol. the only downside of the whole night was the first band sucked.they sucked balls! hahahaha okay they sucked. they sang slow lovey dovey songs and most of us just wanted up-beat songs to dance around to yknow.. well, thats not really the downside, the MAJOR DOWNSIDE of the night was not having my two baby girls there with me! Bibi Hasnan and Bashirah Maidin! a song came on, one we used to sing all the time, and i got excited to sing along to it and i was hoping these two girls to sing with me but then i remembered they weren't there. :( LOSERS! hehe. kidding. love you two. :p i bet we would've danced without a care in the world. like we did that one time at that dinner. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU MISSED OUT ON THAT! >:( okay i want to cry like dis. :( hehe well, now i just cant wait to see you girls. we should really have a sleepover. we need to catch up and cry and laugh and cry and laugh over and over again. LOL. <3

anyways, i wish all my girls were there.. we were also missing Hanna and Wiyah! If all my girls were there, i would've had a crazier night. that night would've been more than da'bomb! lol.

I MISS YOU GIRLS ALLLOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Hair and Make-up trial

 

so, i actually just cannot decide on which hair-do to 'do'. LOL.

i seriously do not have a clue. oh mahn this is bad..

but anyways...

It's a rap!

yeahh... haha apakan. lol :p

ive already made the mistake of not doing something and regretting it. so now, im going to try my best to live without any regrets. please please please make this work for me this time. this might be my greatest regret. 

i feel like ive disappointed you more than once and maybe this is karma. i dont even know if i believe in karma! but i believe that i made the biggest mistake. and here i am running back to you, taking a chance, hoping against hope you havent given up on me. what i did probably made you hate me. (i hope not though. hehe). please forgive me for what i did. i think right now im feeling what you felt back then. guess i now can say 'i know how you feel' and actually mean it. i'll wait. i will. :)

now or never?

so here's the thing.. im supposed to be studying but uhhhh....there's been a lot of procrastinating going on. HEHEH. i studied that one noght for like half an hour kali sja. LOL. and i was supposed to be making notes but in the end, my paper was empty. hmm.. thats bad.. right? hahah

oh well! there's always tomorrow. :p

(yatah nada tu nahh..)

A girl's gotta do.....

.... what a girl's gotta do. LOL :p

excuse my open-ness. lol

2011

ITS A NEW DAY 

ITS A NEW WORLD

ITS A NEW LIFE!!!

I just realised that i havent made a 'Happy New Year' post. im not gonna do it now btw because thats just pointless being almost 4 months late. LOL. if you read my old posts, you can see that my happy new year post is always late.every year. ahwell, story of my life. no?

well, lets see.. a lot of things have changed since 1st January. and let me tell you something, I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW! SERIOUSLY, i thought i was happy then, with ..., but now im so much happier! why you ask? because ive never felt more closer to Allah than i am now. i am at peace. :)

p/s: i am no longer with ...... so lets just ignore the old posts. kthnxbye. :)

p/p/s: i'd like to keep the posts anyway to remind me of what happened. whether good or bad. kthnxbye. :)

The Start

i woke up late this morning. at 12.30pm? what is that? morning? afternoon? whatever it is, i woke up late. i got up, took a shower, ate lunch and got ready to go to Maktab Sains. im volunteering in the Rediscover Brunei race organised by the Youth Programme student who went to USA last year.. we were getting the check points for tomorrow and i just found out that the tasks the contestants have to do are everything to do with Brunei tradition and culture. its so much fun. im gonna be at checkpoint no.1 and the task is very interesting. i cant spill it now but lets just say, im looking forward to see the contestants give it a try. im excited to see the outcome. hehe. i might take pictures of it even, and post it up here. maybe. hehe.

OHMYGOD! guess what? some of the teachers in-charge of this whole thing are my teachers from Putri Masna! Sir Ariffin & Mr. Shai! hahaha. i was avoiding them but in the end, Sir Ariffin saw me and he was like "eh! kau!" hahaha. and it turns out, he's also in-charge of check point no.1 so i'll be stuck with him tomorrow. he's gonna bombard me with questions! :( im not ready to answer.. haha. FINGERS CROSSED! :p

oh something surprising just happened to me just now. my brother picked up my mobile phone and said "1 missedcall" there was actually none. suddenly the phone rang right after he said it! haha. i looked at the screen and it was a number i dont know.. then when i answered, this woman said "hello. Assalamualaikum. ini dari unit penderaan." *silent* "hello?...." *silent* "ini coporal(sp?) ####?" HAHAHAHAHAH! I WAS SO BANGANG! then i said no & she was like "oh bukan? minta maaf salah nombor" GILA! TAKUT KU SUDAH TU! hahahaha adakah UNIT PENDERAAN telefon aku! hahaha. i actually thought i did something wrong or i might be the next victim or something. haha mahnn i watch too much CSI, Criminal Minds, Bones, etc. hahaha. okay maybe this is a sign for me to take criminology. yes, i think so. criminology it is then :) nerbes ku eyh! *butterflies in tummy*

hmmm..yeahhh.. things are more interesting when im not in the house. haha. i should go out more. after the 30th i will. because for now im abit busy. but my busy is considered going out too.. so okay maybe today was the start of m interesting holiday. hehe. thats all i gotta say for now. will update more soon. toodles. :)

Spot the Diifference?

we're both busy.

this is what i'm doing at the moment.

this is what he's doing at the moment.

KISS

my version of KISS's Gene Simmons. hehehe

nice what? :)

Workshop

i went to school today for the UCAS, PS workshop thingy and i stayed in the lecture room from 9am-12.15pm. WOW! i dont how i couldve stayed in there that long.. but yeah.. it was useful for me.. my friends ditched me though. haha they werent interested at all so i had to stay in the lecture by myself. 

since i spent my the whole morning in the lecture room, i didnt get to talk to Wiyah, Fee, Bash and Qilly.. :( well, i did talk to Qilly early in the morning before we went in the lecture.... so i guess its mostly the other three.. BIBI, on the other hand, has gone all MIA on us all. or maybe just me. haha entah. VICHE! >:(

*sigh* i wanna spend more time with the girls.. ive always been out with the boys and i need my girl time! i spent most of last year with the boys and i forgot how fun it is to hangout with the girls.. now with the new girls, i would just love for us all to get together and just have some girl time.. but entah..

Anyways, Sufyan sent me home tadi. he said 'oh your parents nada?' cos my car wasnt in the garage. so i said, 'no lah. my dad sja kerja, my mum ada..' then when i knocked on the door and waited for like 10 minutes, i realised they all mustve gone out. even my mum. -__- so Sufyan was right. again -_-" why is he always right nowadays? haha im always right, he's always wrong. but nowadays he's always right bah..i guess its a sign. i sign to show that i should listen to other people too... haha KARMA! maybe? :p hehe i love my boy :) okay uhh... sidetracked. HAHA. so yeah, fortunately my neighbourhood is my nenek's, my aunts' place so i went to my aunts place to wait there till my parents come home. just as i reached their door and pressed the doorbell, i see my car zooming in my direction! HOORAH! naik kereta ke rumah terus... and we lived happily ever after. NATTT. the end.

okay bye. thats all for now. PEACE OUT (:

Stamford Test Result

 

tell me bout it.

hello. i havent been blogging for a while now.. i guess ive just been busy with exams and all.. but really, i just dont feel like sharing anything.. so maybe i should blog now.. since i have no better things to do at the moment.

So exams over now.. i returned all my books and folders to my tutors. i only have this one library book to return. it was due in january but i keep on forgetting so its way way way overdue now. i gotta pay something like $30 i think. do you think they'd hunt me down if i dont return the book? hmm.. hey i didnt say i was gonna do it, its just an idea. hehe. Well, now that thats done, i have to think about my courses, university choices, personal statement, UCAS, CV, etc. i still cant decide! i need help from my career's teacher. :( Thursday is the whole personal statement workshop at school so i might have extra help. i might wanna start photocopying all my certificates tomorrow so i can get it stamped soon.. i wonder if Yan's busy...maybe he could accompany me... yeah..

Then i have the whole adventure club meeting for the extreme challenge and orientation.. then im also volunteering in the Rediscover Brunei race thingy.. sooo may things to do.. want to see how full my schedule is? hmmm... lets see..

25th November- PersonalStatement workshop & Adventure club meeting

27th November- Go to Maktab Sains to set up booths and get t-shirts for Rediscover Brunei

28th November- Rediscover Brunei SHOWTIME!!!

30th November- appreciation dinner for the volunteers.

4th December- Adventure Club Extreme Challenge

.........i also have the adv club orintation in dec but i cant remember the date & also BDAC Lestari life skills training in Dec. then i have my own vacation for a bit.

after that, i need to start my work attachment, get a part time job to earn money, volunteer at HRD for the next UK exhibition. on top of that i also need to start hitting the gym as well as continuing my TaeKwon Do training.. SO LITTLE TIME, SO MUCH TO DO!

I NEED TO START PLANNING MY DAYS! ITS GONNA BE HECTIC! :( okay enough whining about my busy days. i guess thats all for now. will blog again soon. promise. (:

i miss my boys :')

so watzzzzzz

Life's been Good

My life so far has been good. surrounded by wonderful people. couldnt ask for a more better life than this. i am grateful. thankful. this is the time when you look at everything you have and appreciate it. its just overwhelmingly wonderful. (:

So what else is new?

he says im emo. deep inside. deep deep inside. hmm.. yeah sure whatever. maybe its true. i mean, who doesnt get emo from time to time right? hehe he knows me well. one of the reasons why i love him. yes you loser  boy. i love you. <3

its soon. real soon.

EXAM EXAM EXAM!!!!

Exam starts next week. as in tomorrow. but mine starts on wednesday sooooooo 2 more days till my Psychology AS exam! WOOT WOOT! cant wait to get this exam over and done with. for reallzzz ma niggazzzzzzz

One month and still counting :)

The first time I met you, I didnt think I would fall in love with you...

BUT I DID.

Now im happier than I have ever been.

I love every little thing about you. even your flaws.

I Love You. 

More than Winnie the Pooh loves his honey.

More than Tigger loves bouncing on his tail.

I Love You, Abu Sufyan Zainal Abidin.

For us both. :)