Shuuusssshhhhhhh!

I know I know.. kisah lama... hahaha. tapi aku suka wah gambar-gambar ahh.. suka ku liat ahh.. good memories wah tu! hehe. so just shut up people who know the story! hehe.. I Lappsss you all, dont worry...

There are more pictures from 'good memories' wahh.. tapi malu jua ku kan post up here.. hehe.
i wonder what happened?... oh right, Abang Australia happened. oh well.. life's still good. hehe.

nanti lah, if i have the guts to 'share', then i'll post more of those good memories up here. haha.but i said 'if'. haha. okey dokes. its time for me to go. ladder bebis. hehe.

p/s: i miss you babe. come home soon.

Memories!

Happy Birthday Nana!
(this was 2008 btw.)

some more memories..

more memories..

the cake was yummy!

Good memories..

Memories i'll always cherish. good times good times. hehe..

Engaged!

Congratulations Kaklong Besar! hehe.. my cousin got engaged today.. my very first cousin to get engaged. hehe. its too bad we didnt get to be there to watch her get ready and all that.. why?

because... the fiance is a new zealander whose mum is not in Brunei and they dont know the malay tradition for engagement ceremonies. Sooo... My family acts as the fiance's representative. which means we are acting like the fiance's family. So the fiance uses our house and all that.

Hmm... i just realised that i dont have photos from this afternoon. oh well.

This Is For The People Who Went Through The Same Thing.

This is for my people who went through the same thing i did with my best friend. You're not alone. I know how you feel. You just gotta have a little patience.

So what did i go through? well where do i start? let's seeeee...... You know what? No, im not gonna tell the whole story, but let me just make some points out of them.

In life, things dont always go your way. Nothing is forever. even your friends, best friends. You just have to learn to let go at some point. They'll meet new people, make new friends. You cant expect them to just be friends with you.. So you should do the same thing too. meet new people and make new friends. when they're with their new friends, they might not realise that you feel left out because they're in the company of new, exciting, fun friends. So you know what? get over it already. hang out with your new friends! It doesnt mean that you have to forget all about your bestfriend, but what would you rather do? sit around watching your best friend drift further away from you? or have the same fun your best friend's having? i'd choose the latter if i were you. and i did actually. made my life easier.

It may hurt at first; when you see how your best friend doesnt even realise that you cant stand staying in the same room with her anymore, even for 10 seconds. when you see how your best friend doesnt even realise that you dont say, even a single word to her, for the past couple of weeks. when your best friend only realised all that when someone else had the courage to ask her if anything happened between the two of you. and only that is when she realised everything and confronted you.. Yes, that may hurt at first. but hey, make new friends, everything will be fine.

So you see, this is for my people who went through the same thing. and believe me, i know quite a few people who did. This is for you my friends. You're not alone. and im very happy to be friends with you. You know who you are.
xoxo.

This Is For The People Who Just Lost Somebody.

This is for my people who just lost somebody. Your Best Friend, your Baby, your Man or your Lady. Mamas, Daddies, Brothers, Sisters, Friends, Cousins. Put your hand up high. we will never say bye.

I just lost a very very good friend a few months ago. It came as a shock. unexpected. I didnt know how to react to the news when they told me. The last time i saw him, things didnt go so well. never knew that it really was the last time. He was like a brother to me. He taught me a lot of things. He took good care of me at that time.

So i found this song and the lyrics made me sad and i think i cried. I think it should be a lesson for you all to always treat the people you love with respect all the time. so that you wont live in regret.

This song is called Lock-Spork-Krock by Nikola Sarcevic.

Its been a tough time for you
But ive never seen you cry,
The last time i saw you
I never got to say goodbye.

You're the reason im living
And to you i owe a lot,
And im happy for what you've given
You're everything ive got.
You're everything ive got.

I havent done much for you
And im afraid i'll never will,
Didnt tell you that im sorry
For the part of you i killed.

You're the reason im living
And to you i owe a lot,
And im happy for what you've given
You're everything ive got.
You're everything ive got.

There were times when i did hate you
And i wished that you were dead,
But i try to valuate you
And see the good in you instead.

You're the reason im living
And to you i owe a lot,
And im happy for what you've given
You're everything ive got.
You're everything ive got.

Oh i miss you
I always will
I love you still, brother.
Oh i miss you
I always will
I love you still, brother.

In Loving Memory of, Awg Padilah bin Awg Hj Amit.
22nd February 2009.

correction.

ooopss.. my mistake. it hasnt exactly been a month since the last post, but its around a month la.. so whatever. hehe..

so anyway.. i decided to post a few things up here. and i have a theme for the posts. So, my 'post theme' for tonight is called 'This Is For The People'. see what i mean after this. read on, then you'll know. thanks everybody.

WOW!

it's been exactly a month since i posted something up here!!! haha.. oh well... i've been busy.. so yea.. i'll try to post something soon. maybe. hehe.

1st March 2009

It was the Palestine Amal Day. A fund raising event for the Palestinians. Congratulations everybody! A job well done!

the long hours, the late nights, the long waits, the endless scene takes, the aching body of every actors, actresses and also crew members. they were all worth it! the drama was a rap! it was awesome! we rocked that stage! we managed to make them shed some tears!

despite those long hours, we also had lots of fun during practise. the endless eating! oh how much i remember me and Efah fighting for chocolate. haha. we ate a lot during practise. if the practises kept on going for months, we'd probabaly be obese now. haha. seriously.

so now everybody, all you have to do is... SAVE GAZA! hehe. im serious. do everything you can to help and save Gaza. Just by spreading the word of Gaza's suffering can make a change. Tell your friends that there are people out there who are suffering. Even if you cant really do much, praying for them is good enough. Help your fellow muslims. pray, spread the word, do researches, at least you did something about it.

Palestine Amal Day

The man who made the drama possible.
.WafiyM.

actors. actresses. crew members

some of the main actors/actresses

The Israeli Soldiers

Photos while i was away..

This is the best car ride ever. not. hahaha. i was riding in a lawa car, and had a 'Murano Rush' afterwards. haha. we love the car! so very 'wow' and 'lawa'. hehe.

This is Fauzi, with his lawa long hair and bloody kaca mata. He is my dysfunctional friend. we're both dysfunctional. hehe. oh, i dont know why i just typed 'bloody' kaca mata. HAHA.

what i've been up to

well.. its been a while since i updated something here.. okay. My tests were Okay. I got 'okay' grades, none that got me want to kill myself. HAHA. im actually proud of my grades because they've improved! awesome. hehe.

Hmm.. i've been going to my friend's place everyday for a week now. Sleeping, talking about our miserable situations and most importantly, trying to finish our History Projects!!!! haha. i think its finished now.. i think. haha.

I have nothing more to say now.. oh! my cousin flew to Australia the other day. He'll be studying there for god knows how long.. so im bored now at home. because whenever we meet up we'd go, "Lets go to coffee bean!" or "lajutah jalan!" haha.. we both are always trying to figure out a way to get out of the house. So i dont have anyone to bring me to coffee bean now if we cousins get together.. boringgg... My friend, Manda, and I actually drew small stick people on post-its about my cousin's life in Brunei and how its going to be in Australia. They're funny drawings. sadly, i forgot to take pictures of them. they really are funny. we couldnt stop laughing while drawing them. haha.

bah thats all i got in my mind. nothing more. bye.

Excitement

both of my english literature papers are done! weehee! just one more paper to go. psychology! okay, im a bit excited today. why? because i had my paper4 e.lit test this morning. when the time was up, Mr.Boyce collected our papers and when he reached my table he said something that made me think i did bloody awesome in my paper3!!! hehee.. he said "i like your poetry writing." my mouth actually dropped and i said, "huh??? sorry?" He said, "i already read the beginning of your poetry writing and i like it." then he smiled. my heart was beating fast! i was all 'wooohoooo!!!!' inside. haha. so that made my day. i was bouncing around the school all day. hehe. so i hope i did this morning's paper as good as i did yesterday's... hehe.

So now, i have to study for my psychology test on Thursday. i hope i do great in this, because A2 paper is very very difficult. I just have to practice my essay writing, thats all. Oh! my history project is due on Saturday! on valentine's! haha. Ms.Gay kept on reminding us that its due on valentine's, thats why i remember. or else i wouldnt even have bothered to check if my work's done or not. samsengg. haha..

Okay, so now i only have to worry about Psychology and History. oh, and one other thing im scared about but it has nothing to do with my exams. i still havent heard news though.. wonder when is he going to tell me.. maybe i should check my phone. but its upstairs... and im lazy to go up. hmm.. maybe later. huhu.. okay, i should go.

Oh yeah, si Fauzi inda lagi nampak2 di sekolah ahh.. mana kah ya masa ani.. ia sibuk sudah yatah.. haha. i rarely hang out with him anymore nowadays. hmm.. sad. he really is my dysfunctional friend. haha.. because we're both messed up. haha. no lah.. we're just like any normal people out there.
oh guess what? i just saw a cat 'crawling' while 'sitting'. haha rupanya ia kan tangkap burung. but the birds were jauh. i dont think it succeeded. huhu.

bah bah. okay bye.