scary shit

uhhhmmmmmmmm it was a good night. hehehe yeahhh.... :)))) it was so good, im scared.

you

you got me like oh my gosh~ im sooo in love. ;)

:) :) :)

okay ive been coming to school with a big smile on my face the past few days...
ive been happy the past few days...

HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY

Since when? oh uhh since.. 18th July! hehehehehehe

you make me so happy that i come home tired from smiling and  laughing with you. GAHHHH you you you! <3

new page

okay im over that.
*breathe in breathe out
*in with the new out with the old

lies lies lies

FUCK!!!!!! :(

Alzheimer's Disease

i was on my way home from school and the car radio was on. there was this 'ceramah' on the radio and i listened to it. then the dude said something like 'if you easily forget about things dont take it lightly. it could be signs of alzheimer's disease. you will get it when you grow older' i rephrased it ofcourse. he said it in a 'ceramah-y' way.. haha. but yeahhh that caught my attention. it made me scared because i forget about things easily. i usually cant seem to recall what i did the day before. i think i kind of became paranoid afterwards. i started  thinking about what would happen if i got married, have kids, and got alzheimer's at a young age/mid-30s... i would not be able to recognise my husband, my kids. they'd think id forgotten about them but i wont be able to help it because its a disease! i was watching this korean movie about alzheimer's and i cried real bad.it was so sad. thats why i got scared and  paranoid. like, what if i'll get alzheimer's when i get older? what would happen to me? to my family? how will i live? this was a few days ago i think. or maybe like a week ago.

BUT what really made me think about it today was what happened this morning. i was in the shower and i washed my hands with soap. then i washed my face using a facial cleanser. while i was watching my face, i thought 'eh! cuci tangan sudah kah tadi?' i washed thhe soap off my face immediately and washed my hands. THEN i remembered that i did wash my hands. already! these kinds of things happen to me all the time. its kinda like a short-term memory loss thing. i always end up doing the same thing twice because i dont remember doing it the first time. well, i got really scared this morning that i googled Azheimer's Disese. 

YES! i actually googled it! haha well, it turns out that the symtoms are way worse than what im experiencing. what im experiencing is only normal because we also forget things as we age right? so its not a big deal. its not Alzheimer's. i dont have  it. im just a  normal forgetful person because i hit my head. thats all. nothing much.

ALHAMDULILLAH!

is it too much to hope?

okay now comes the serious shit.

i came across something earlier tonight and i dont know why but somehow i was convinced that you were in on this thing that i prefer you not to. you get me? i just really wish that you would not join them in this thing they're doing. you follow? okay lets put it this way:-

Peter became friends with Jane and the gang. Jane and the gang likes to bungee jump. i think that Peter has become interested in bungee jumping and tried it. Peter  became  addicted to it. so now Peter goes out with Jane and the gang almost all of the time to go bungee jumping. i, personally, dont like Peter going bungee jumping because its dangerous. who knows what might happen right? 

so yeaaa... i am concerned about you. i dont know why i even care but i do. i really do. i mean, you're my friend, i should care. thats one of the reasons. but i think its also because ive known you for like since i was born i think. And i have this feeling that somehow im looking out for you for your mum. i dont know why. but i just feel that way. its like ive known ur mum all my life and i.....owe it to her?... something like that. i dont know ehh... i just know part of whats happening in  that house which makes me feel like im part of the family. thats all.

ps: i dont even know if u're really doing what they're doing. i just think you are. but i hope not.

First of July!!!

EHMYYGODDDDDD! its already the 1st of July!!!! its a new month. which meansssssss................. a new start (again). its july already. the mock exam is coming soon... so this new start = studying during free periods, coming to school early, doing homeworks and handing in on time. hmm.. what else? well yeah, its mostly about school stuff because that is my top priority at the moment.

GET ORGANISED, NUREEN!


This especially means my history work. *sighhh* i hope i can  get myself back on track. not that i am off track at the moment. im just not riding the train as smoothly and calmly as i should be. essays are underway though.. it should be fine. things should be fine. *breathe in breathe out* *meditating* haha okayyy

my badness

i feel like blogging again. hehe

first things first. i apologise for the spelling mistakes and the not-so-perfect english on my previous postS. malas ku kan edit wah. so to the very tired youknowww.... so yeah, sorry. forgive and forget okay? hehe

i want to post up pictures  but im just tooooo lazyyyyyy.. i know some people are waiting for pictures.... sorry you guys, i just dont have enough energy to da that. maybe tomorrow.. yeahh  maybe....

i am now downloading songsss... lagu jiwang kah yang ku dngar ani? biartia ehh..
okay kucing di luar bebunyi terus. haha i think they're crying along with my heart because in listening to a jiwang song.. hmmm............okay now the cats are annoying me. bisai sudah tadi peace and quiet.

oh its peace and quite now.... HECK! I SPOKE TOO SOON!

what i ended up uploading. just this. just because its new. like recently.

jetlagged???

i shall blog until i find the need to sleep. okayzzz