Ferreals?

Really? Really?? i dont get it. okay ive gone crazy. talking to myself. anyways...

yknow ive always thought people who asks me personal questions are kind of invading my privacy. my personal space. like it makes me go "mind your own business okaysss!!!" 

but now that i really think about it, you cant really expect people to just come up to you and immediately rant about their thoughts and feelings and problems and happiness. right? 

i dont know if this makes me bimbotic or stupid  or just 'slow' (LOL) but i guess people have to ask you to know how youre doing. whats going on in your life. are you okay or not..yeah. thats gotta be it.

forgive me if i look like i dont care. im not good with this. this social interaction. i guess after what happened it made it harder for me to become close with people and open up. 

and you know what? yes, these 'people' im talking about are my friends. theyre my friends but i still feel that im not close enough with them. i feel that im still not trustworthy enough for them to tell me anything. hence, i dont ask them things. hence, it makes me look like i dont care. therefore, the distant feelings. 

please forgive me. :(

'Twas the night...

That night was da' bomb! LOL. I had so much fun. Although, i do feel a little bit guilty but uh... yeahhh. okay. lol. the only downside of the whole night was the first band sucked.they sucked balls! hahahaha okay they sucked. they sang slow lovey dovey songs and most of us just wanted up-beat songs to dance around to yknow.. well, thats not really the downside, the MAJOR DOWNSIDE of the night was not having my two baby girls there with me! Bibi Hasnan and Bashirah Maidin! a song came on, one we used to sing all the time, and i got excited to sing along to it and i was hoping these two girls to sing with me but then i remembered they weren't there. :( LOSERS! hehe. kidding. love you two. :p i bet we would've danced without a care in the world. like we did that one time at that dinner. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU MISSED OUT ON THAT! >:( okay i want to cry like dis. :( hehe well, now i just cant wait to see you girls. we should really have a sleepover. we need to catch up and cry and laugh and cry and laugh over and over again. LOL. <3

anyways, i wish all my girls were there.. we were also missing Hanna and Wiyah! If all my girls were there, i would've had a crazier night. that night would've been more than da'bomb! lol.

I MISS YOU GIRLS ALLLOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Hair and Make-up trial

 

so, i actually just cannot decide on which hair-do to 'do'. LOL.

i seriously do not have a clue. oh mahn this is bad..

but anyways...

It's a rap!

yeahh... haha apakan. lol :p

ive already made the mistake of not doing something and regretting it. so now, im going to try my best to live without any regrets. please please please make this work for me this time. this might be my greatest regret. 

i feel like ive disappointed you more than once and maybe this is karma. i dont even know if i believe in karma! but i believe that i made the biggest mistake. and here i am running back to you, taking a chance, hoping against hope you havent given up on me. what i did probably made you hate me. (i hope not though. hehe). please forgive me for what i did. i think right now im feeling what you felt back then. guess i now can say 'i know how you feel' and actually mean it. i'll wait. i will. :)

now or never?

so here's the thing.. im supposed to be studying but uhhhh....there's been a lot of procrastinating going on. HEHEH. i studied that one noght for like half an hour kali sja. LOL. and i was supposed to be making notes but in the end, my paper was empty. hmm.. thats bad.. right? hahah

oh well! there's always tomorrow. :p

(yatah nada tu nahh..)

A girl's gotta do.....

.... what a girl's gotta do. LOL :p

excuse my open-ness. lol

2011

ITS A NEW DAY 

ITS A NEW WORLD

ITS A NEW LIFE!!!

I just realised that i havent made a 'Happy New Year' post. im not gonna do it now btw because thats just pointless being almost 4 months late. LOL. if you read my old posts, you can see that my happy new year post is always late.every year. ahwell, story of my life. no?

well, lets see.. a lot of things have changed since 1st January. and let me tell you something, I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER NOW! SERIOUSLY, i thought i was happy then, with ..., but now im so much happier! why you ask? because ive never felt more closer to Allah than i am now. i am at peace. :)

p/s: i am no longer with ...... so lets just ignore the old posts. kthnxbye. :)

p/p/s: i'd like to keep the posts anyway to remind me of what happened. whether good or bad. kthnxbye. :)