After so long......

i saw this old picture and it reminded me of the good times..

*sigh..

OMGGGG

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!  berapa tahun sudah saya meninggalkan blog ini? saya pun tidak tahu. saya ada hidup yang begitu sibuk sehingga tidak ada masa untuk blog lagi.. hahaha

Secret Smile

i see you almost everyday. you make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me blush even! haha. cant shake that feeling off. why oh why.. suka ku liat muka mu ahh.. suka benar ku.. melompat jantung ku wah meliat ahh.. haha..

Just give me that smile already! eh no no, i changed my mind. eh bah okay tah, i changed my mind again. eh jangan tah ehh, nda ku mau ehh.. eh tapi.... what the eff! i cant make up my mind. sorry. that smile is just too good to be true. hehe

Goodbye.

My sister is flying off this thursdayy!!! 1st October. nada tah orang bawa saya jalan2 ni.. haha lain tia pulang.. but yes, she's flying off soon.. =((( hopefully my parents will send me there in December. my winter vacation. hopefully.

right then

okay i was bored wa... and i painted my pinky with red nail polish. lawa colour nyaaa... and and look at that cacat finger next to my pinky. ada cerita tu di sebaliknya. haha.. luan samsengg.. hahaha

aww i miss this hair..my fringe looks awful now. its longer. i dont wanna cut it yet. im trying to grow my hair sampai panjang so i have to tahan myself from going to the salon and cut it short. hehe..

cranky

somethings wrong with the connection. lambat ahh... mcm payah ku kan buka websites ahh... boo..

another loss.

i thought this year would be better.. but i thought wrong. academically, yes maybe its better. personally, no its not. 2009 was supposed to be a whole new world for me!

my year started with a few sad losses, unexpected losses, surprising losses. i dont know how to do this! ive never been through this before! this is why i try to avoid things like this from happening. even though im not that close with some of my losses, but they're still family! then i start imagining what if what if thoughts.. oh gaddd...

oh well theres nothing i can do about it. whats lost is lost. i just have to be strong for these kinds of things.. remember the good times, let go of the bad times. hopefully, there wont be any more losses anytime soon. (even though my atok keeps on joking around about HIS 'doomsday'.. adakah cematu.. heh)

Al-Fatihah to Uncle Jack, Nenek Long, Tok Yakub, Padilah Amit, Nenek Iring, Nenek Mala. May you all rest in peace.

Selamat Hari Raya.

Selamat Hari Raya everybody. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Forgive me for all my wrong doings. if ever i hurt your feelings or said or did something inappropriate, please forgive me, i probably didnt mean to do it or i was just caught in the moment. heh.

Even though im not in the mood to celebrate raya this year, i hope you all have fun celebrating. okay?

p/s: i'd like it if the people who hurt me asks me for their forgiveness. im not quite sure if there are any, but... i'd just like it. enough said.

is the loving to the core of my heart

they say we look the same. do we? this is my family, I LOVE YOU! lub youhh very very deep in my heart. deep as deep deep. HAHA. tpi mcm ada seorang missing kan adik ku ani.. mana ya ah? inda ikut begambar ahh.. heh.

colourful

i'd like it if you do.

kiyoooooootttttttttt. suka ku liat ahh

ani wah. suka ku liat tangan-tangan ani. colorful lagi tu.
manis. hehe

Thank You? Yes, Thank You.

I've been meaning to post something about this ages ago but i was so busy i didnt have time to go on the internet. so yea... Anyways, this post is a THANK YOU! post especially for Fauzi Samat! hehe.. why? because i just realised that i actually spent my birthday (yes, on the day itself) with Fauzi. haha.. we went to HuaHo and kami SHOPPING! eh! jangan lupa belikan aku kasut di Charles and Keith yang ku tunjukkan kau ahh. hahah.. so yea, thank you Fauzi for spending the day with me. you know my situation jua kan about the 'girlfriends' thing. hehe..
okay thats all i have to say i guess. well, maybe for now. hehe.. =) Thanks Zie.

Love,
Feah. xoxo

P/S: i hunted for pictures of us and here's what i found. its not much. heh.

macam bahagia kami atuu... HAHAHA

ani nah gambar mu yang ku suka.. hehe..

hmmm... i just felt like uploading this. good times. =)

awww... and look at all the girls around you who loves you.. haha
and i think kau keberatan because i sat on your lap. hahah

you're so baik to me you even want to urut me.. HAHA

I like this picture tapi kau nda liat the camera..

That's all Folks!

P/P/S: I Love You Fauzi. thank you for being there for me whenever i need you. you know i care about you. even though you annoy me sometimes. =D but i know thats just a show you put on. hehe.. =p

With lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses, Feah. your long lost friend who is always baik to you when other people arent. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEPTEMBER BABI-ES!

Qays, Mali, Faid and Wazien!
happy birthday kamuu..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AK. MUHAMMAD WAZIEN IKHWAN BIN PG IKRAM! dan AHMAD FAID CHONG ISMAT! hahaha. aku inda tau if betul atau inda nama kamu atu tapi asalkan ada nama kamu, bersyukur tah. okay? hehe. anyways, happy 18th to Wazien! berakal tahh.. HAHAHA and and happy 19th to Faid/Chong! aku baru tau yang umur mu 19.. hehe..

.Faid/Chong.
Chong! aku nada gambar sama kau so aku ambil2 saja dari orang. hahah
handsome kau atu chong ehh.. hahaha

.Wazien Ikram.
walaupun gambar ku bida sini tapi asalkan birthday boy nya handsome! hahah

Happy Birthday Shol!

Birthday Boy. ooopss salah. birthday MAN. hehe.

Happy 20th Birthday Nasrullah Adanan!!!!! hehe. im glad to have met you because you are so friggin' FUNNY! hahaha. and and even though sitting beside you in class is dangerous, aku banyak ketawa jua pasal kau! haha. yeah.. yang penting, kau selalu buat aku ketawa lah.. you make us ALL laugh. thats why we love you Shol. && even though i found you creepy weird at first, because you remember everything about me, my sister, my car and all that (haha), i found you funny sudah from there. hehe.

sorry we couldnt do anything for your birthday this morning because Prince Azim came kan so it was pretty hectic tadii.. But uhh hopefully you had fun at school and all. and i know i wished you a happy birthday like balik-balik. macam everytime i see you kan aku wish kau atuu.. haha. so yea.. im broke jua so i cant buy you a cake or anything. hehe. but i did give you a birthday present right? the MENTOS chewing gum i gave you in Psychology class.. yea... haha

Anywayyyy...... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOL! again. hehe. we love you. stay funny. like Bibi said, dont you dare change! especially for a girl. okay? :)

Love, Nureen. <3

poker!

so i learned how to play poker early this year i think, and i kept on losing. so i kept telling myself to play on facebook as practice. haha. but of course, i never did. hehe. then a few days ago, i just felt like playing poker on facebook because i didnt have anything to do. so i played! and well, i lost. over and over again. haha. i won a few times but yeah, thats just a few times. Gaddddddddd!!!!! inda dapat play poker in real life ni mun cemani ani. haha kalah saja ahh! apa ni.. haha. palui kali.. so yea.. i can never gamble. haha okay thaTS all. oh wait, i had a point tadii.. apa ahh?.. oh yea, i have become addicted to poker now. HAHAHA. walaupun kalah saja, main jua masih. dayyyuuuummmmmmmm. okay. bye bye now. =)

GI Joe!

I watched GI Joe!!!!!!!!!!!! it was awesome! The movie was awesome! Channing Tatum was Awesomus Prime! haha.. but seriously, I LOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. hmmmm.. i love. <3

You You You

This guy memajal ahh.. the Stalker Check thinggyyy on facebook ahh. he's number 13, which is his number but he wants to be number 1. i checked this a long long time ago. so he wants me to check it again.

This is now. August.

This was in July.

Masih jua inda number 1! hahaha. prasan wah this guy kan jadi number1 stalker. haha.

aku mau upload photos. but i dont know what photos to upload. HAHAHA. hmmm...

confused

i've been hearing and seeing on Facebook that June AS level results are out. but i dont know if they're true or not. I want to know my results juaaa.... hopefully they're better than last year's. I'll score this November's. i must i must i must. its the only way to go. nyehhh..

sunshine.

You see how he can never let me lose? haha. Thats because i must always win. and I win fair and square. i didnt make him lose. he just needed time to take in how awesome i am. hahaha

This guy brights up my day all the time. especially when im not feeling well. He always makes me laugh. eventhough it made my head ache even more because i was laughing so hard. but still, he makes me feel better.

MY SUMMER!!!

Okayyyyy.. this is what we call fooling around. Sister's home for the summer hols so yayyeeee!!!! tpi now she's in singapore. i want to go also but i have school. boo.. no fun! heh.

Betrayal

You see, people like YOU shouldnt even deserve to be called a FRIEND. 'friends' who come and go shouldnt be called friends. But you see, the thing is, its different with you. YOU are my Best Friend. how can i say these things about you. i cant even begin to say bad things about you. inda ku sampai hati bah! If you could only see you now.. I bet my life you would know how wrong your actions were. but thats only an 'if'.
You're my BestFriend. i will always stand by you through ups and downs, thick and thin. we've gone through lots of things together. I'll just have to wait for you to snap out of it. I'd say 'dont you come running to me asking for a shoulder to cry on when things dont go the way you thought it would!' but i know i will never say that. because im your bestfriend. how can i? i guess i can wait till you get your mind thinking straight again. it usually does. then i would just have to pretend that i've been the one who made things complicated, not you. thast just the way it goes. you're too fragile for me to let you know the truth. i just cant bear to do it.

You see what a loyal friend i am? even when you hurt my feelings when you said those things, i still stand by you. i still say you're my bestfriend even when you did and said things a bestfriend shouldnt do or say. but if you feel that 'that other person' is more important to you than i am, then i hope you're making the right choice. i only want you to be happy. because if things dont go right, i know how much that would hurt you. and i dont want to see you get hurt. once was enough. No matter what happens, i'll be here for you. even after everything thats happened. Because we're bestfriends.

I'll always be there.

In times of trouble,
In times of need,
If you are feeling sad,
You can count on me.

I will give you a wink,
until you smile,
Give you a hug,
and stand by your side.

I'll be there for you till the end,
I'll always and forever be your Friend.

AUGUST!!!

Its August!!!!! hmm... time seems to be passing by so quickly.. 23 more days to my birthday! 18! i cant wait! hehe.. i just want to get my driving license wa.. so that i can go to the dentist first thing in the morning without having to disturb my dad.. and so that i can go to the gym without having to ask for rides from people.. and so that i can just go out without worrying about who to send me and pick me up and all that... its just so tiring wa to be worrying about things like that..

Anywayyyy....... i think i had the best day today! hehe.. school was okay as usual. oh but let me start from before i went to sleep last night. So i went to sleep around 1.30am i think.. had some things to do so yea.. then my dad woke me up at 6am. we were supposed to go before 6am because babah had a golf thing, im not sure what, but its about the Golf Asian Tour kali.. but we woke up at 6am so nda jadi lah.. in the end, we went from home at 7.15am. HAHA. and i was all ready an hour before that! pacahh... so i was sleepy but 1st period psychology was fun so i snapped out of it. then i had fun during PS. Mirul became a human torch. Me, Yasri, Nis, Waie, Duan, Mujib, Wazien, Shaa were there to witness it! but we ouldnt really see the fire because it wasnt dark.. but Yasri and I heard the flame go out! it was Awesomus Prime!!! hehe.. other classes were fine until last class, history, from 1-2.30pm .because i became sleepy and fell asleep most of the class. heh.

Then, i went home, i ate, i took a nap and then i took a shower and got ready for a tahlil at my nenek's cousin's place. oh yea, i just remembered that i was supposed to go out but i couldnt find anyone to accompany me. everybody else had plans so i went tahlil instead. After tahlil, me, my sisters, brother and dad went to Bandar! because it was the last day right so yea.. Now this is where my day turned from GOOD to THE BEST! hahaha. okay so i went to bandar and i knew who were going to be there but i did not expect to bump into them. So as i was walking, i saw them! the group i secretly wanted to 'accidentally' bump into. haha.

Then i saw him! i saw him! ohhhh... how good he looked. made me wonder if i really really broke his heart. a heart so pure, so innocent.. he looked happy to be with his friends.. if only i had the courage to face him... i dont think he saw me but me seeing him was good enough. just looking at him made me smile. it brought back good memories. my heart suddenly felt so light like it had never gone through what it had just gone through... i think his friends saw me though.. being able to talk about him to his friends is good enough. they probably knew that i was happy to see him. i was. i actually was. i was HAPPY to see him. hehe.. =) and i know how much people would approve of him more.. but things are just complicated. even though im the one who makes it complicated. still... But im happy just looking at him. i smiled all the way after seeing him.

BUT the one thing that really made my day was the closing. even a simple conversation with the person i love would make my stomach flutter, my heart skip a beat. the adrenaline rush was just so amazing i wish it would never stop. hmmmmmm... if only we could really work things out, we'd be just fine.. i guess its just too hard to make it work. with the distance, the seriousness.. how we could let a few bad things forget tonnes of good things i dont know... if its meant to be then its meant to be.

Sigh... okay, Goodnight Loser. because you're an awesome loser. <3

My Abg Australia is home! im happy. hehe.

desserted.

i was supposed to go to Manda's place this morning. but guess what?? My dad drove off without me! i had important things to do at Manda's! gaaaddddd that just pissed me off. i think im gonna sleep over her place tonight. or just go out or something. i need to get out of this house. i seriously do. i'll ask Manda later.

Shuuusssshhhhhhh!

I know I know.. kisah lama... hahaha. tapi aku suka wah gambar-gambar ahh.. suka ku liat ahh.. good memories wah tu! hehe. so just shut up people who know the story! hehe.. I Lappsss you all, dont worry...

There are more pictures from 'good memories' wahh.. tapi malu jua ku kan post up here.. hehe.
i wonder what happened?... oh right, Abang Australia happened. oh well.. life's still good. hehe.

nanti lah, if i have the guts to 'share', then i'll post more of those good memories up here. haha.but i said 'if'. haha. okey dokes. its time for me to go. ladder bebis. hehe.

p/s: i miss you babe. come home soon.

Memories!

Happy Birthday Nana!
(this was 2008 btw.)

some more memories..

more memories..

the cake was yummy!

Good memories..

Memories i'll always cherish. good times good times. hehe..

Engaged!

Congratulations Kaklong Besar! hehe.. my cousin got engaged today.. my very first cousin to get engaged. hehe. its too bad we didnt get to be there to watch her get ready and all that.. why?

because... the fiance is a new zealander whose mum is not in Brunei and they dont know the malay tradition for engagement ceremonies. Sooo... My family acts as the fiance's representative. which means we are acting like the fiance's family. So the fiance uses our house and all that.

Hmm... i just realised that i dont have photos from this afternoon. oh well.

My No.12

This is the Love of my life.
Im going to marry him.
No.12 kuu!!!!!
(my right)

To Bits and Pieces.

I miss my annoyingly dysfunctinal friend. siapa nah? FAUZI lah! who else? haha.
I also miss my other friend friend friend forever and ever that i love. FARHAN! hehe.
I also to the very miss my bestfriend to the maximum. AMAL AQILAH ARIFFIN! huhu.
Last but not least, i miss my ABANG AUSTRALIA! He's coming home soon! hopefully. Home! Soon!

I Love You all to bits!
Fauzi, have fun with your new lifestyle. i dont care what you do as long as you're happy.
Farhan, i hope things work out so you can be happy and i can tease you around.
Qilah, i havent seen you for ages! where you been girl? whatever you're up to, hope you're happy.
Abang Australia, there arent enough words to tell you how much i miss you. and you better be happy! hehe.

Especially for Waie.

Finally i posted something up here. hehe. This is for you Waie. peminat setia ku. haha. Lappps you Waie.

I want I want

I want to post photos here.. but im so malas now.. nanti tah saja..

What else do i want? Oh! I want to watch iRobot! we're watching it tomorrow in GP class! i cant wait!!!! Will Smith bah tu! and Shia LaBeouf! but he still looks a bit kanak2 there. but no matter. Will Smith ada. so okay lah. Thats why I cant wait to watch it!!!! hehe.. im just so excited now.. *giggles*

I also want Abang Australia to come home! come home soon ah...

I want to drive jua! but im still young, so i cant. well, legally speaking la.. kalau ilegally manasaja.. hahah! pandai pun inda. yatah I want to belajar..

I want to buy a car ehh. but i'll need years of savings tu ehh mun kan buy a car. with my own money lagi tu! angan angan bnar siNureen ani.. biar tia bah. keep the imagination wild wah. if no imagination mati karang. haha. over tia nah.

oh alright. i'll go now.

I Love I Love

I love 'whose line is it anyway?'!!! hehe.. okay. i want to watch it now..

ladder *imitating sanol*

I also love......... apanah? Yes, I love. I just Love.
Wow. Im making no sense now.. i better go now before more nonsense appears here.

Im just missing and loving at the same time. okay? okay. case closed.

I miss I miss.

Saya rindu kawan saya Amal Aqilah binti Ariffin!
Saya rindu Abang Australia saya!

Saya rindu kamu! *sigh..

This Is For The People Who Went Through The Same Thing.

This is for my people who went through the same thing i did with my best friend. You're not alone. I know how you feel. You just gotta have a little patience.

So what did i go through? well where do i start? let's seeeee...... You know what? No, im not gonna tell the whole story, but let me just make some points out of them.

In life, things dont always go your way. Nothing is forever. even your friends, best friends. You just have to learn to let go at some point. They'll meet new people, make new friends. You cant expect them to just be friends with you.. So you should do the same thing too. meet new people and make new friends. when they're with their new friends, they might not realise that you feel left out because they're in the company of new, exciting, fun friends. So you know what? get over it already. hang out with your new friends! It doesnt mean that you have to forget all about your bestfriend, but what would you rather do? sit around watching your best friend drift further away from you? or have the same fun your best friend's having? i'd choose the latter if i were you. and i did actually. made my life easier.

It may hurt at first; when you see how your best friend doesnt even realise that you cant stand staying in the same room with her anymore, even for 10 seconds. when you see how your best friend doesnt even realise that you dont say, even a single word to her, for the past couple of weeks. when your best friend only realised all that when someone else had the courage to ask her if anything happened between the two of you. and only that is when she realised everything and confronted you.. Yes, that may hurt at first. but hey, make new friends, everything will be fine.

So you see, this is for my people who went through the same thing. and believe me, i know quite a few people who did. This is for you my friends. You're not alone. and im very happy to be friends with you. You know who you are.
xoxo.

This Is For The People Who Just Lost Somebody.

This is for my people who just lost somebody. Your Best Friend, your Baby, your Man or your Lady. Mamas, Daddies, Brothers, Sisters, Friends, Cousins. Put your hand up high. we will never say bye.

I just lost a very very good friend a few months ago. It came as a shock. unexpected. I didnt know how to react to the news when they told me. The last time i saw him, things didnt go so well. never knew that it really was the last time. He was like a brother to me. He taught me a lot of things. He took good care of me at that time.

So i found this song and the lyrics made me sad and i think i cried. I think it should be a lesson for you all to always treat the people you love with respect all the time. so that you wont live in regret.

This song is called Lock-Spork-Krock by Nikola Sarcevic.

Its been a tough time for you
But ive never seen you cry,
The last time i saw you
I never got to say goodbye.

You're the reason im living
And to you i owe a lot,
And im happy for what you've given
You're everything ive got.
You're everything ive got.

I havent done much for you
And im afraid i'll never will,
Didnt tell you that im sorry
For the part of you i killed.

You're the reason im living
And to you i owe a lot,
And im happy for what you've given
You're everything ive got.
You're everything ive got.

There were times when i did hate you
And i wished that you were dead,
But i try to valuate you
And see the good in you instead.

You're the reason im living
And to you i owe a lot,
And im happy for what you've given
You're everything ive got.
You're everything ive got.

Oh i miss you
I always will
I love you still, brother.
Oh i miss you
I always will
I love you still, brother.

In Loving Memory of, Awg Padilah bin Awg Hj Amit.
22nd February 2009.

correction.

ooopss.. my mistake. it hasnt exactly been a month since the last post, but its around a month la.. so whatever. hehe..

so anyway.. i decided to post a few things up here. and i have a theme for the posts. So, my 'post theme' for tonight is called 'This Is For The People'. see what i mean after this. read on, then you'll know. thanks everybody.

WOW!

it's been exactly a month since i posted something up here!!! haha.. oh well... i've been busy.. so yea.. i'll try to post something soon. maybe. hehe.

1st March 2009

It was the Palestine Amal Day. A fund raising event for the Palestinians. Congratulations everybody! A job well done!

the long hours, the late nights, the long waits, the endless scene takes, the aching body of every actors, actresses and also crew members. they were all worth it! the drama was a rap! it was awesome! we rocked that stage! we managed to make them shed some tears!

despite those long hours, we also had lots of fun during practise. the endless eating! oh how much i remember me and Efah fighting for chocolate. haha. we ate a lot during practise. if the practises kept on going for months, we'd probabaly be obese now. haha. seriously.

so now everybody, all you have to do is... SAVE GAZA! hehe. im serious. do everything you can to help and save Gaza. Just by spreading the word of Gaza's suffering can make a change. Tell your friends that there are people out there who are suffering. Even if you cant really do much, praying for them is good enough. Help your fellow muslims. pray, spread the word, do researches, at least you did something about it.

Palestine Amal Day

The man who made the drama possible.
.WafiyM.

actors. actresses. crew members

some of the main actors/actresses

The Israeli Soldiers

05.03.2009

Happy 18th Birthday Farhan Azama!
I hope you had a great day. Hopefully, it was a day that you will always remember. The Best Day Ever! and if you stick with us, there'll be lots more of 'best day evers'. hehe.
I love you, We love you, They love you. Everybody loves you. Remember that.
You're the best-est friend a person could ask for. happy birthday Hans. *peluk kuat2*

Photos while i was away..

This is the best car ride ever. not. hahaha. i was riding in a lawa car, and had a 'Murano Rush' afterwards. haha. we love the car! so very 'wow' and 'lawa'. hehe.

This is Fauzi, with his lawa long hair and bloody kaca mata. He is my dysfunctional friend. we're both dysfunctional. hehe. oh, i dont know why i just typed 'bloody' kaca mata. HAHA.